I can’t believe four weeks have passed since my operation! I have had quite a busy week and I feel physically tired in the old familiar way I used to before my operation (although from a lot less activity!)
When I wrote my week three blog, I aimed to get more secure using one crutch, which I have but I am still using two for proper walking. If I wasn’t doing very much I think I would be fine on one but I have spent a lot more time at the yard and doing other things which involve lots of standing around and walking and my leg gets tired quickly. When it is tired I can’t walk properly with one crutch, I guess it is just not time yet.
I am now able to walk up the stairs normally, just holding onto the hand rail which is amazing. I take my crutch with me and put it on the steps my left leg goes on but that is only really because I need it when I get back onto the flat!
The big aim this week was to get back to work. I have done several tutoring sessions and one full day back at the shop where I work. Everyone has been very understanding and considerate and it has all gone really well. I did have a major brain fuzz when I was first in the shop but I soon remembered what I was doing! It isn’t going to help my tiredness but I need the money!
Another change this week has been that I have started to forget that I am on crutches. Sometimes I find myself standing up and then realising I have to sit back down to get a crutch otherwise I can’t go anywhere! As long as I don’t have to go very far there are some things I can do crutch free.. this morning I had a proper standing up shower (without the shower stool) and managed to get in and out without a crutch, I am also pretty good at grooming and tacking up with as little movement as possible!
Things ARE still moving forwards but I’m feeling more and more frustrated that I still have two more weeks before things really change. I still have to wait two more weeks until I have my next physio session and can (in theory) ditch the crutches, ditch the anti-embolism stockings, start sleeping on my side and start driving. My parents will also be going back home to Devon in two weeks which is going to be a massive change for me. My mum has done SO much for me and aside from the fact that she is helping, it has been so lovely to have them close by for a change and spending some time together with our patchy pets.
I am predicting that the next two weeks are going to be quite tough, I am working a few days a week and resuming my normal tutoring schedule as well as spending more time at the yard and trying to continue to progress. Mentally, the tricky thing is that I also feel a bit like being four weeks down the line means I should be just cracking on with life and that I shouldn’t still be all about the hip anymore. I don’t want to bore people, I don’t want to be a broken record but my recovery is the big thing going on right now and it is pretty all consuming.