I wasn’t going to do a five week update as all the important next steps are earmarked for the six week mark HOWEVER this blog wouldn’t accurately document my journey if I missed out the feelings of this week.
Up until this point I have been really pleased with my progress, the op went well, the wound is good, the physio is going well, everything has been getting easier and I have pretty much smashed all of the goals set out for me in the generic hip replacement document and those I have set for myself. That is until this week. I have been panicking about the fact that six weeks should be the point at which I can walk unaided but I can’t see how that is going to be possible. I can speed along with two crutches or one as long as I’m not tired, I am walking 2-4km a day but when I try to take a step unaided, I just can’t keep my right leg (my good leg) off the ground for enough time to take proper steps. I just can’t do it.
My boyfriend has reminded me that in the space of a week (last week) I went from lying on my side and not being able to lift my left leg off the other one at all to being able to lift it right up several times. My mum said that it doesn’t matter how many weeks I am on crutches, my brain will let me walk when my body is ready. My top visitor Rachel (from My Last Week Of Pony Freedom), who has visited me every other week since my operation, said that it is just like when you are running up a sand dune; you start off with good forward momentum and then at some point it gets hard-going but you can work through it and get to the top eventually.
All this, and reading people’s words on the Facebook support group, reminded me that this is my journey and that each hip replacement recovery is individual. It doesn’t really matter what it says in the book, it doesn’t really matter what other people do. I desperately want to walk next week, I even had a dream last night that I could, but if I can’t, it is not the end of the world.
At the school I used to work at we used to talk about the children owning their own behaviour (essentially taking responsibility for their own actions and not getting bogged down in what other people are doing). I have decided to embrace my own journey and own my own recovery!