Sadly the riding I’m doing isn’t exactly the kind I have been so missing but it is something. In Week Six – (Partial) Freedom I mentioned that my physio suggested I try cycling. I couldn’t quite face wobbling around on a bike and inevitably ending up on the floor. Luckily a wonderful friend has lent me a turbo trainer so my recently neglected bicycle is now installed in the living room. With each rotation of the left pedal my new hip gives a little click feeling but it seems to be ok. I’m going to slowly build up my cycling time to get these muscles working!
I am also very much back driving. The first time I drove on the roads I just went down the road to the yard (a five minute or so drive). I felt quite panicky, there were motorbikes chasing me down the hill and then on the way home I had to do what felt like a million hill starts in slow moving traffic. Aside from the slightly dodgy first drive, things are back to normal driving wise. With the extra freedom that comes with independent travel also comes a bit of anxiety; I am quite nervous of walking in busy places worrying that someone might knock me over and I generally feel a bit vulnerable being alone. I’m sure this too will pass and I will get back to being strong and independent!
I’m so desperate to ride Pea again. The other day I climbed over a gate and thought that if I could straddle a gate, I could probably get on a pony. I have set myself the restriction that until I can do everything myself (bring her in, turn her out and muck out her stable) I shouldn’t be riding. On Tuesday I made a leap towards this; I got to the yard and Pea had been on a ride so she was in her stable. I left my crutch by the stable, took her to the wash area, hosed her off and then took her out to her field. Walking crutchless when you’ve got a pony to help at any sticky points is all fine until they spot a tasty bit of grass.. The other problem was that when I had turned her out, I had to walk back to the yard with nothing to help me. I was fine but not particularly straight and smooth. I also had to stop lots of times to rest! Not sure what I would have been like if I had ridden as well but I guess I will find out when the time is right!